The dark ones scream
Terrors of the night
I hear them call
Them shiver with delight
They shout my name
Their voices stinging my soul
“All will be lost!”
“You will never be whole.”
Their embrace is cold
But it’s feeling non-the-less
Their nails makes me bleed.
I enjoy the pain.
Their arms wrap around me
Dragging me to the depths.
There’s nothing left for me.
I’ve failed the test.
I see your face in my mind.
You’re beautiful smile torments me
Something that I once thought was mine
Is forever lost from me.
The trust we once had.
Smashed, broken, destroyed.
I lay here writhing in pain
I loved you…couldn’t you see?
You’re gone now.
Misunderstanding breeds separation
I forgot all caution
Lost my heart in the war.
None truly see my pain
Except the father above
I have not the want to ask him for aid
My shame prevents me.
So here I am
Alone in the darkness
Mind and body apart
The voices eat my flesh.
Your adoring words haunt me
Remnant of what once was
Now can never be repaired
I drown in grief and loss.
Your smile will adorn me no more
Your laugh never will I hear
Your eyes will hold no love for me.
Their brown depths cut off.
Life holds no luster for me.
I need to let you go.
Fool my mind into believing
That I didn’t love you so.
For a while it works
The feelings have left.
I feel as if you matter no more.
My bleeding heart severed off.
Then it hits me.
The lies I told fall through
You show another your smile.
My soul cries out in agony.
Do I mean so little?
That so soon you choose another?
Have I left no mark on you?
You bear no pain of my loss.
Was it all one sided?
The feelings, laughs, tears?
Were the compliments empty?
Was I nothing?
It seems this pain will never leave
I will always abide by the loss.
Clutching my aching heart.
Praying for the sorrow to cease.
The jealousy returned
Full fury aroused.
How could you do this?
In my mind I know how…
Do I resent you for your impact on me?
God knows that’s not true.
I only regret that I never listened
To the warnings my Father gave.
You go now on with your life.
Enjoy your love, life, friends.
Leave me by the wayside.
I’ll cherish what could have been.
I’ll stand by my bleeding heart.
Watching it as it throbs with pain.
See the blood spew forth.
Know…it will never be the same.
Terrors of the night
I hear them call
Them shiver with delight
They shout my name
Their voices stinging my soul
“All will be lost!”
“You will never be whole.”
Their embrace is cold
But it’s feeling non-the-less
Their nails makes me bleed.
I enjoy the pain.
Their arms wrap around me
Dragging me to the depths.
There’s nothing left for me.
I’ve failed the test.
I see your face in my mind.
You’re beautiful smile torments me
Something that I once thought was mine
Is forever lost from me.
The trust we once had.
Smashed, broken, destroyed.
I lay here writhing in pain
I loved you…couldn’t you see?
You’re gone now.
Misunderstanding breeds separation
I forgot all caution
Lost my heart in the war.
None truly see my pain
Except the father above
I have not the want to ask him for aid
My shame prevents me.
So here I am
Alone in the darkness
Mind and body apart
The voices eat my flesh.
Your adoring words haunt me
Remnant of what once was
Now can never be repaired
I drown in grief and loss.
Your smile will adorn me no more
Your laugh never will I hear
Your eyes will hold no love for me.
Their brown depths cut off.
Life holds no luster for me.
I need to let you go.
Fool my mind into believing
That I didn’t love you so.
For a while it works
The feelings have left.
I feel as if you matter no more.
My bleeding heart severed off.
Then it hits me.
The lies I told fall through
You show another your smile.
My soul cries out in agony.
Do I mean so little?
That so soon you choose another?
Have I left no mark on you?
You bear no pain of my loss.
Was it all one sided?
The feelings, laughs, tears?
Were the compliments empty?
Was I nothing?
It seems this pain will never leave
I will always abide by the loss.
Clutching my aching heart.
Praying for the sorrow to cease.
The jealousy returned
Full fury aroused.
How could you do this?
In my mind I know how…
Do I resent you for your impact on me?
God knows that’s not true.
I only regret that I never listened
To the warnings my Father gave.
You go now on with your life.
Enjoy your love, life, friends.
Leave me by the wayside.
I’ll cherish what could have been.
I’ll stand by my bleeding heart.
Watching it as it throbs with pain.
See the blood spew forth.
Know…it will never be the same.
